D-Day

Well we find out how much weight gain, today is the drs. appointment. I wish I could cancel but Scott knows all my appointments and I have no reason not to go, other than the fact I cannot afford this luxury of seeing my doctor.
I am depressed, and its funny I do no think even a smoke would help. This is one of those days where I feel that I am the only one without money, without my husband, feeling like I have been deserted by all and there is no one to help me.
This will pass, as all passes, and there will be better days and I will laugh again just not today. I could really write a chapter this afternoon about my feelings and all I feel that have wronged me and made my life tough, but who is that helping , especially when I have promised God that I am over the pass, and only looking at today, and trusting him for tomorrow.