Pre Easter

Well, I am ashamed to admit this but I did not crawl out of the bed until 11:00am. My husband would say I was burning the daylight, but I could not go to sleep, walking gives you more energy. This is when I need a job to use up all this energy, but when you cannot find a job and so many physical problems that prevent some of the other things you once were able to perform.
I have mixed feelings, I do not know if I am disabled or not! I know if Kathy had not fired me I would still be working, regardless of the physical pain, so I do not know.
I only know, I need to shower and take some deep breaths because I just reached for a smoke that of course was not there. Habits just slip up on you it is not something you think about, or even want to do. It happens subconsciously and your body just reacts.
5 hours later
Do Not go to grocery store on Saturday before Easter and trying to be a non smoker at the same time!!!! I wonder where, some peoples sign was today. you know the one that reads "I AM STUPID"
It took every ounce of courage I had to muster up the will power to not throw the groceries back and buy cigarettes instead !!! I mean the cost would have been the same and my brain is lying to me telling me how much better Iwould feel if I would just take 1 drag. I know this is a lie but I trained my brain to think this for years.
Thank heavens I am home with the groceries and safe from the people that forgot to wear their sign.