Internalization

Does quitting smoking make you become brutally honest all of a sudden? When I reread my post from yesterday, I was amazed at what I have been able to admit. I have a good friend that is Catholic, and she talks of confession being good for the soul, well I have confessed to the world so I will see!
I am going this afteroon to watch my grandson play baseball, he pitches and plays first base, I do not know if I would want him to read this blog and the truth about his grandmother. What I would like for hime to know is I love him and I am so proud that his parents, even tho estranged, raised him in the church. He prays before each game, makes me feel warm all over.
My grandaughter would also be shocked at my revelation I believe. She is a college student but comes home to attend church. My son and I do not get along and he would, I think take great pleasure at my confession and of my pain. I mean after all it was his childhood.
Maybe I should invite my ex-daughter-inlaw to read this blog. Maybe it would help her to understand her ex-husband a little better. No, I am not saying it was totally his fault they did not make their marriage sucessful, because I know it takes two to make a marriage.